Last year at this time I was just wrapping up my Landmark Education seminars. My head was spinning with my new found reality that life has no meaning! And as much as I fought the idea of life being meaningless I think I finally understand the power behind it. Like an artist with a blank canvas, I now get to take all the meaning away and start anew.
Yesterdays heart aches and disappointments are nothing more than a story I told myself.
So today I am starting anew. Blank is my canvas and I'm ready to paint.
I'm painting a picture of health, happiness and beauty. I'm painting a picture of faith and diligence. I'm painting a picture of being an extraordinary mother and wife. I'm painting a picture of all the things I long for, like my big country house with a porch swing in which my husband and I can grow old holding hands (Derik, you better want to grow old in a porch swing holding my hand). I'm painting a picture that is open and accepting of the path my Heavenly Father wants me to take.
The power lies within me to think these things into existence. To give them life through the words in which I speak. In the end I believe all we really have is our "words". Never ever in my life did I appreciate the greatness of God until I too tried to honor my Words as he does. God operates by the power of His word–i.e., what He articulates happens– inevitably without any exception—
Just try keeping all the promises and commitments you have said and made in just one day and you'll finally understand just how loosely we all treat our words.
I guess I'm convinced if my thoughts and my words are all aimed to the good things in life, I cannot miss.
For those of you that know me, it is of no surprise that I have no consistency or order to the way I live. I have come to realize that this orderless way of life is a great cause of grief in my life.
I'm terrified of having a plan, because when you have a plan you are accountable for the results. I'm horrible at following through and being consistent (theres just so much pressure when I have to be organized and accountable). But so far I haven't achieved the things I want out of life and I know its directly associated with my lack of direction and dedication.
I decided that I would start out simple, (after all I do overwhelm quite easily) by creating a schedule for my days. I don't expect things to flow smoothly and I know living by my schedule might be the hardest thing I have yet attempted to do . I expect to crack under the pressure of no longer being as free as a bird, but I also expect new and exciting things coming to pass when I live a more orderly life.
So here's my plan.
How My Perfect Day Would Go
Go running at
Eat at
Do resistant exercises /Get ready for the day
Eat at
Clean my house / Yard work
Eat at
Do things with my kido’s
Eat at
Eat at
Eat at 8:30
Walk when weather cools
Read to kids before bed time
Spend some quiet time with the hubby
For those of you wondering why I'm obsessed with eating so much, I am horrible at eating at decent times and tend to just eat like one or maybe two huge meals. The more reading I do the more I see the human body needs to be constantly fueled and not just given one daily dose of calories. I'm also concerned about the example my eating habits are setting for my kids. Hopefully this way we can eat smaller more healthy meals and keep our bodies functioning as they should.
Getting up early is extremely hard for me and I'm quite sure that it just might be the hardest part of my plan. I'm open to any kind of suggestion that can help me get through my dread of mornings.
Hopefully this way everything has a place in my day and no one thing will dominate what I need to accomplish and nothing gets left out.
1 comment:
I like your action plan. Very nice good writing down your thoughts and goals.
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