50 Things About Me (You May or May Not Know)

1. I have a blogging problem! Post-and-Read-and-Post-and-Read....When will I ever get bored with it. I could spend all day blogging or reading other people's blogs (and sometimes I do), It probably stems from my obsessive personality .
   
2. I have OCD about rearranging things. Not because I think things need to be perfect or aligned just right, but rather I hate looking at things that never change. I usually rearrange at least one room in my house once a month. I guess it makes me feel like things are new and exciting.
3. I always order the same thing when I go out to eat. If it's Mexican I get a plain old Bean and Cheese Burrito, if it's Italian it's Fettuccine Alfredo. If I'm getting breakfast it's always hash browns with biscuits and gravy. I'm quite boring that way.
   
4. My first car was totaled (just days after I finally got the thing running like it should) by a one armed man who was driving a stick shift and trying to change his cassette tape.
   
5. I teased Derik on our first official date that I wanted 11 kids!
   
6. I prefer salty things over sweet ones.
7. I have no middle name, although in Jr High school my friends felt sorry for me and gave me one. Michelle "Sunborn" Ward.
   
8. I am overly sensitive and I cry a lot.
9. I didn't get (what I considered) my first kiss until I was 20 years old. I heard rumors once that my neighbor once told everyone he kissed me in a game of truth or dare, I guess he remembers the outcome differently than me.
   
10. When I told my best friend "Mimi" what Derik's last name was, her first reply to me was "Girl you cannot marry him." I said "Don't worry I won't"
    
11. I secretly believed I was adopted and every time my parents and I would fight, I just knew they were going to break down and finally tell me the truth. I'm still waiting mom and dad!
12. I used to secretly steal my moms romance novels and read them in my parents trailer so I wouldn't get caught.
13. I'm not the mother I always thought I would be.
14. I would do just about anything to go on an adventure of any sorts.
15. I am afraid of "forever" and I get really sick inside when I think about it. Most people talk about it like it's really cool, I think its overwhelming and way too much for my little brain to handle.
    
16. My laugh changes. I notice that my laugh starts to mimic the people I'm with, and I cannot help but wonder why?
    
17. I used to do really dumb things and hang out with people who liked to do even dumber things.
    
18. I have my dad's legs. I lovingly refer to them as my tree stumps. Sorry dad, your manly legs just don't look good on my short frame.
19. I usually swim fully clothed.
20. I used to yell at people who touched me. Sometimes, something about being touched still bothers me.
    
21. I have a horrible habit of swearing around people that I should be on my best behavior with.
    
22. I used to have a full beautiful head of hair and I'm glad because I'm a trickster and I have been for 16 plus years. I am sure I would be bald by now if it wasn't for the ridiculous amount of hair I once had.
23. I'm still terrified to pee in an outhouse of any sort. I always wait until I know I'm going to pee my pants before I'll actually step foot in one. I just can't get the idea out of my head that a snake (or some other ugly hideous creature) will crawl up and bite my bum.
24. I used to vehemently turn my nose up at tomato's, onions and hot and spicy things. Now these are the only things I crave.
25. I used to have this reoccurring dream that I was swimming in a huge pot of noodles eating as much as I wanted. Sometimes it was Mac and Cheese....Umm, yummy.
26. I love to use periods in this fashion"....".
27. I was convinced when I was younger (way before I was married) that I was barren. I guess after two kids I must admit that I was wrong.
    
28. Both times Derik and I have moved I was four months pregnant.
29. I think that Derik and I should move to Montana. I cannot explain why, and I have never been there. Derik says that Montana has awful winters and I don't do well when it comes to winter and feeling like I'm trapped. So who knows why I have this crazy idea, maybe I can blame my mom and all her stories of hanging with Aunt Glady's on her ranch.
    
30. I cannot eat meat if it is still attached to the bone.
31. I get crazy ideas in my head like moving to Montana or thinking I'm barren, and I still listen to myself.
32. I love to sing. My Grandpa Benson calls me his little song bird, even though there are plenty of others in my extended family with more talent.
    
33. I hate questions that require me to answer what my favorite is? I cannot possibly be that decisive and my favorites, if I actually had any, changes on a daily basis.
    
34. I like to bore people with facts about me that aren't really that interesting.
35. I love puzzles or doing things that requires me putting things together.
36. I don't work smarter, I work harder.
37. I love learning new skills. Anything form crocheting to fixing my own car, nothing seems uninteresting.
38. I cannot watch scary movies of any kind without having nightmares, especially movies that involve the super natural or the unknown. I watched Signs a few years back and couldn't sleep for three days after that and it wasn't even that scary!
39. I used to sleep sitting up with my head resting on a pillow that was sitting on my legs, which were folded Indian style.
    
40. I have never been to Disneyland or any other theme park for that matter. The closest I have come is going to a six flags in Texas.
    
41. I was never asked to a dance and I never went to prom.
42. I broke my own rules when I asked Derik out, because I swore I was never going to make the moves on a guy, and that I was never going to ask a boy out. See what happens when you break rules!
    
43. I have this body image problem, unlike anorexics who see themselves as fat, I see myself as, well.....Not as big as I probably am. You can only imagine my great and horrible astonishment when I see myself in pictures.
    
44. My eyes change colors, that's right my eyes change colors. The outer ring of my iris is always a dark blue but the inner part of my iris changes colors according to what I wear. If I'm wearing blue my eyes are blue, if I'm wearing green my eyes go green. When I cry my eyes turn bright green.
45. I cry hysterically when I come out of anesthesia and I laugh hysterically when I cry really hard. I'm so backwards!
46. When I was in High school I had a cyst removed from my wrist and I came out of the anesthesia while they were in the middle of cutting me open. I can actually remember them pumping me full of drugs to put me back under and then (because they gave me so much so quick) I guess I was forgetting to breathe, so I could hear them say "Michelle, you have to breathe honey", and then I would hear the heart monitor beeping very slowly as if I really wasn't breathing, but I couldn't make any sense out of it all.
47. Up until my last semester in college (I stopped going because little Alivia came along) I had straight A's. Can you believe it? I did get one "B" in my Biology class, but I like to blame that on my pregnancy.
    
48. I cannot remember one thing I learned in college, just goes to show that you "use it or you lose it".
    
49. I attempted to have both my children without the help of anesthesia, but I just couldn't get past the horrible terrible feeling I was going to die before I reached 10 centimeters. I made it to six centimeters both times before I chickened out. I knew that it hurt like crazy when I was just a two and I was throwing up at around four centimeters, so when six finally rolled around, I was totally beyond reasoning. My greatest admiration goes to our pioneer grandmothers who didn't have any other choice.
    
50. Last but not least, I am finally realizing that I need to stop being ashamed of who I am and although I'm quite flawed, I am realizing I too have something to offer.