Thursday, August 4, 2011

Day Four

Seven Things I'm Scared of
  1. What doesn't scare me.  
  2. Disappointing the ones I love.
  3. Failure.
  4. Creepy, crawly things.  I hate bugs and spiders and snakes.  
  5. Anything involving pain or death.
  6. Being alone
  7. My greatest fear is intensely personal and hard to explain.  I'm not sure why I feel the way I do or why I had so many issues as a child, but things that bothered me when I was just a small child still bother me to this day.  Issues with self worth, issues with trusting the ones I love.  Issues with feeling accepted and loved for who I am.  I fear that in the end, I'll discover I really don't matter to anyone and that my whole life I'll have lived under the guise that I thought I was important or special to someone and I really wasn't.  Silly huh.  Putting it in writing makes it sound petty and self absorbed and yet the fear lives on...

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