The Truth is...

• I'm having a hard time separating myself from my bad habits.
• I want to log back onto facebook about every other hour, simply because I don't know how to fill up all my free time yet.  
• I eat out of boredom and anxiety, two things that have been my constant companions these last few months. 
• I promised myself for my 32nd birthday I'd get it together.  That I would start eating better and exercising more. So that I can stop packing on the pounds.  Yet the past two days I've been super hungry (like tummy gnawing -growling hungry) and bored, and I find myself doing exactly what I shouldn't be.  Change is HARD for me.
• My house is big giant mess and I have zero motivation to clean it.  Right now I'm staring at pieces of a mushy banana Isaac flung all over the floor and I'm not cleaning them up, I'm just staring at them.  I don't like a messy house, but with three kids who love to make messes and destroy everything in sight, I've sort of given up on the cleaning battle for today.  Most days I just give up and let the messes multiply, until I can't take it any longer and then I spend an entire day trying to clean a weeks worth of messes. 
• Pigeons have built a nest on my front window ledge.  It's so cute to see the birds all snugly in their nest out my window, but it is just above our front door and I'm a little worried about poop and crazy mother bird bomb diving.  I'm rather torn on whether or not I should move the nest. 
• I have vegetables in my garden.  I don't know if anything will have time to fully develop before it just gets to hot, but it's so exciting for me to see peppers and zucchini and tomatoes growing.  
• My baby sister is graduating from High School next week, I won't be there for her graduation and I won't be there to see my father (who recently received the Aaronic Priesthood) baptize her as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  That's three really big events I'm missing and it makes me sad. 
• We finally got our pool key cards and the 28th can't come fast enough we are so excited to finally use our neighborhood pool. 
• Summer is just a week away.  If I can live through this summer, I can do anything!  I have so much trepidation and anxiety for the long hot days ahead of us.  I will have all 3 of my kids ALL day long with nothing more to offer them then a trip to the neighborhood pool, Heaven help me!!!
• The truth is I convinced myself today that there wasn't any point in cleaning my house because I was the only person that had to look at the mess.  I laid Isaac down for his nap and settled myself down to have my own when the door bell rang.  It was my Relief Society President.  It was hotter than Haities outside so I invited her into my disaster of a house....Oh I wanted to die!  I swear if I had the house clean and presentable nobody would ever stop by.  Murphy's Law, I guess.
• The truth is, I really love my new relief society president.  There's just somethign about her that is so real and genuine and caring.  Yet another fantastic lady the Lord has put into my life.  What a great example.