Lessons I'm Learning

I do not endure things well.
I have many more character flaws then I know what to do with.
I'm being taught empathy.  Every time I see a couple out to dinner, or a family together, or I drive past a home, my heart is full of longing and sorrow.  Every public venture seems painful.  In a small way I can see how terrible some peoples burdens are.  I think of all the people out there that long to be married and have families, but who find themselves alone.  I think about couples who want children so badly, but don't have any.  I think of worthy people who long for certain blessings, but haven't received them yet. 
My trials seem petty to most.  But they are very real to me.  I have days where I am overwhelmed with grief.  I know God knows best and in time things will work out just as they should, but living every moment in the "now",  makes those promises and hopes feel extremely distant. 
I long for a break from my trials.  I know they are for my good and my betterment, but I just want a small vacation from them, that's all...
There is always room for growth.  Every time I think I'm there and that I have finally learned my lesson, or that I've grieved and learned enough to move on, I'm set back and I have to learn and grow some more.
Apparently I'm a s-l-o-w learner, maybe even a stubborn one too, because I keep having to face the same problems over and over.
Walk a mile in my shoes.... I'm learning life isn't always what it seems, all sorts of people are weighed down and burdened in this life.  Maybe I should be less quick to think less of people because of the way they deal with their trials and hurts and setbacks.
There is one who knows exactly how I feel and He knows exactly how to free me from pain, I just have to learn to believe I am worthy of His love and blessings and forgiveness. 
No matter how bleak my days have been or felt there has always been small moments of peace and joy and sometimes even laughter.  I'm so grateful for that.
Keep moving forward.  I've been told this is what I need to do.  So even though I have no idea what that means or how it applies to my current situation, I will keep putting one foot in front of the other and leave the rest up to the man upstairs.