A Little Better....January in Review

I'm ruled by my emotions.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. 
And right now I seem to be stuck in a pessimistic grump.   
I tend to get in these moods when things aren't moving as quickly as I'd like them to.  When I get impatient and I want to control things that are out of my control.  When I think things should happen according to my time table.
I'm not really a pushy person by nature, and the few times I've pushed for "my way" the results have been ugly and disastrous!  So you'd think I'd learn from that, right?
Never the less I have these hopes and dreams and I'm ready for a fresh start.  My heads in the clouds, but my feet are planted on the solid ground of reality, and I keep tripping over reality, because my vision is somewhere else. 
I sort of had a reality check yesterday as I sat thinking about all my frustrations. 
I worry so much about the future and the uncertainty and the things I can't change, that I forget to worry about the things I can change and am in control of. 
For example my (new year) goals are going unfulfilled,  while small and certainly attainable, I do very little to accomplish them each day.
Like most new years resolutions I did really well the first week or two.  Things got done and I felt good about myself.  Then along comes a bad day.   And everything I wanted to accomplish seems uninteresting and unimportant and the lazy side of me shines through, when I realize it's much easier and convenient to be the old me.   Easy and familiar become more enticing then fulfilling my goals. 
So I'm off track.  I want to get back on track.  I need to do things that are hard but GOOD for me.  Because that is the only part of life that I can control, it's truly the only thing I can change and make better.
Here are my January Stats.

• Read the Book of Mormon and the New Testament one time through.

Made it to Matthew 14

• Do something for my physical well being one time each day, big or small. 

Exercised 10 out of 31 days.

• Say one kind thing, as well as I love you to each of my family members,  every day. 

(Didn't track this)

• Spend one night every month out alone with each of my children.  Mom/Daughter Mommy/Son dates.

Took both kids to Red Robin for lunch, but didn't take them out individually.

• Spend one night a week where Mr. Giovannoni and I can just be alone together.

Didn't Happen.

• Have one night each week where we can just hangout together as a family.

Didn't happen, unless eating dinner together counts.

• Eat one serving of food at each meal, and no sneaking seconds.

I was really good doing this for about a week.  But I made up for it the rest of the month by not having any self control.  

•  Run one 1/2 marathon. (official or unofficial)

Ran once on the treadmill.

• Try one thing I've never done before.
• Do one thing that I'm afraid to do.
• Fast one time each month

February (check).

• Attempt to make myself look presentable (makeup on, hair styled, out of PJ's) one time every day, preferably before 10:00 am.

I think I did this about 10 out of 31 days as well.

Now that February is well on it's way I'm going to try and get back on the right track .  I still have 20 days to double my efforts and make some much needed changes.